I am doomed

I promised myself this semester would be different. i would blame it all on dance, but the truth is, even when i had no dance, i chose to rest thinking i deserved it. but i don't. SO here i am, left with a few days to exam, and being totally unprepared, while everyone has prepared their ass off.
I just dont want to fail.
: (
my standards have fallen so far from what they used to be. Nowadays, that's all I hope for. Where the fuck is my fighting spirit.

And to top it off, I had to go for Marie's bday party last night and another tonight. So. Die la. Bye everyone. Pics soon.

Two.

At one point in my life, and this I read in my old diary, I had questioned if I'd ever find someone I truly love and who loves me back. It had seemed like everyone around me (meaning my two best friends) were happy and content with someone they said they loved. I started to doubt it and I was seriously convinced that I was gonna end up alone next to a fireplace, knitting sweaters for my rabbits. I was gonna have 4 rabbits. I was a teen, so excuse the drama. hehe.

But good things come to those who wait. God had a different plan for me, I guess. I didn't just need a boyfriend, I needed someone who would restore in me all the confidence I lost when I was in high school, I needed someone who would pull me from my negativity and show me a different way of looking at this world. Someone who would look out for me as i neglected myself, chasing my goals. I didn't just need a boyfriend, I needed a partner. And God just took a little more time to find me someone like that.

It's been two years since me and this malay boy got together:



Happy Two-nnisary baby! : )



It's been crazy awesome being with you and I love you to the bone. Sure, we fight, and get upset but at the end of the day we'll still kiss and make up. We don't go to bed angry at each other, we don't walk out on each other. You still make me breakfast everytime I stay over and I, well... I dont do much in the mornings, but I know you love me anyway. :) I love that even after 2 years of being together, our flame is still there, I still find you handsome and you still do things everyday that makes it impossible for me not to love you more.

We'll have a real one after exams, k? :)
I love you. So much.

Tick tock tick tock

I need time!
I have a very very bad feeling that I won't get ma studies done in time, that with a pending essay i havent touched, due in about a week. How. HOW am i supposed to study for 2 papers and finish an essay which are all due pretty much consecutively?

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On an unrelated note, ma cafe looks good!

what ive been up to!

Ok, so a quick catchup on what i have been up to since the winterbreak. I'll just put some of the more momentous events. lol. Facebook pics help me keep a chronology of events that I've been to. and to get pics from people--God only knows how useless I am with a camera. hehe.

So, during the winter break, we combed petrosains, with Amir as our tourguide and it was as always fun, to go a lil crazy with these people. hehe :) whats our next stop in december, guys? and ri, penang pics la woman.hahah.



Merdeka night was once again, an excuse to party. lol.

And i saw 3 people i didn't expect to see:

Shaowen, whom i know was in Melbourne but i hadnt seen her at all!

RIC!! who left Melb for half a year, and i'd missed him dearly. this pic is a lil blur la, but blame mich's camera. lol.

and kenny sia, who counted down the merdeka cheers. haha. I don't have anything against him la, although i know a few of my friends who do. hehe.

Me, ake, lye, ariff, leia and ake's mum went to the AAR concert over near St. Kilda beach. fong and ian were there to support hoobastank, the opening act, but boo, man. AAR all the way! hehe


we also had an adventure ride, and found Tyson at a nearby hotel!! he is HOT. leia believes they'll end up married, and since he actually knows her name and recognizes her now, i really see it as a possibility. hehe.

Then, my birthday in September of course!hehe. before midnight, i went to watch the band performance of a mutual friend of my brother and I. It was our first double date(?) lol. And then they surprised me with cake. I almost cried, because it was nice, celebrating with the people i love the most(well, ma bf and bro la, i just met Karen only. but she's damn nice, i like her!:) ) in a quiet little gathering and the 4 of them sang me the song, and it was somewhat,.. i dunno comforting? haha. like a really cosy, loving celebration. :)


then, i had a surprise party organized by Lye, with balloons and curry and the same awesome chocolate cake as last year! lol.



And then proceeded to meet with more friends at MyCube! it was great having everyone all at one place. As you get older you get less presents tho. hint hint. hehe.


And a few days later, I became the very happy and proud owner of my very first pet. I didnt know what to name her, and in the interim when she didn't have an official name, I called her Cupcake, and the name stuck, so I dunno about the official Sergeant Peppers Roller Coaster. No once calls her that. lol. Look at ma baby Cuppy! :) but she's pretty big now and really naughty but she loves it when i rub her head and i love her wet nose. :)



Somewhere during the spring break, ake and lye had an open house thingie, so I went and it was a typical student-type thing though--open house with KFC! haha. We did have an awesome chocolate cake though, the same one like the one for my bday--we missed it and desired upon it to reside in our belly once more. and i discovered this trick of putting a slice in the microwave for 10-20 seconds, and let the chocolate layer melt, and eat it with warm cake, and it is DIVINE. not to mention sinful. lol.



Mun foong and jeremy came over to melby, so we went for a night out on Friday!and it was great bonding with the girls.




I attended Malam Gemilang in early October, which, looking back, i dont even know why i decided to go, cuz i didnt know many people there. lol.


And just a week plus ago, dance production. I looked back and saw my post about me attending production last year with Von and Fong and all. After watching it, and I saw how awesome it is to achieve something so big and celebrate the end and I thought, it must be such a good feeling to feel a sense of achievement like that. And so me and Von promised we'd join this year, and we did. I did 3 pieces. Von choreographed one piece and I'm so proud of her. :) And she did 2 contemp pieces which is so out of her comfort zone, so thats awesome. true enough, the end of production felt like the end of a chapter in my life this year, it really felt overwhelming to be part of somthing like that. All those weeks of sacrificing my studies and fatigue and crankiness felt worth it after those 3 days of performing, the rush of adrenaline and the chaos backstage. I met new people, but i mostly enjoyed gettin closer to the people whom i had grown apart from, like Von and Marie.

This was a latin/chacha piece i did just to step out of familiarity. "fever" by elvis! and compiled with a rock-ish version which i dunno who sang.
in retrospect, i shudda tried out contemp cuz the contemp pieces were really good!


this was a fun piece. Car Wash!:)

And finally, von's piece. Freakin stressed for this one, cuz I dunno, really didnt wanna mess it up and let Von down i guess. lol.

A SriKL reunion. lol. it was fun doing makeup together and frequently hearing "eh can i borrow your blusher?", "Omg why do I like look i freakin clown!?" "Stage make up is supposed to be like that lah, dont worry." "eh , *insert name* how do i look? is it thick enough?" haha. not to mention the camwhoring! but I'm lazy so one's enough. hehe. thank cheri and michelle who came on Thurs, heng, sheng, ric and akey on fri, and Kimmeh, Juneh, Ai Ling, Nishy and akey who came on saturday! :) twas fun. Anyway, as production loomed to an end, I felt weirdly nostalgic, I honestly thought I'd be glad it was over, then i could seriously settle down and get my work done, which, surprise, surprise, i haven't until now, because it's really hard to get the gears rollin!

so,yeah, up until recent, that's all, folks! :)

whoa.

ive abandoned the blog i promised i wouldnt abandon for the longest time. hehe.
now im gonna revive it. i actually considered makin a new one, but heck it.

erm, a proper update shall be up soon. as for now, i have procrastinated for almost 3 hrs, exams are in a week and i am doomed.

ok bai.

TOO MUCH

too much of something is bad enough
but something's coming over me to make me wonder

too much of nothing is just as tough
i need to know a way to feel to keep me satisfied




too much of something
we're gonna be living a lie.






- i cannot believe i'm quoting spice girls.

Happy Chinese New Year!

I have taken this oppurtunity to express love to my current favourite chinese clan.

Although I don't spend a lot of time with you, know that I miss you.

It was just a very hectic month (December) for me. 

But anyway, as I have assured Thomas, this year will be different.

So happy chinese new year, friends and buddies.

Let them not take the chinese that is in us.

We chinese shall stick together!

Take care all..

Note: Mel, in no way am I implying that only your friends read your blog.